Oh motivation where art thou?

My motivation is MIA today. I have absolutely no motivation to clean today at all. It doesn't help that the hubs isn't here....he's usually such a big help. He's working everyday until the 18th, which I really hate because he won't be spending much time with me or the kids. He called me about 30 mins ago and its so cold that the mud is freezing before they can dump it at the top of the line. When he left he had 4 pairs of pants on, two pairs of socks, 5 shirts and 2 pairs of gloves on. I feel so bad for him having to work in this cold weather.

Thursday was my first day of school and it was awesome. My teacher is great, she's never had a student ever fail and she uses her grant money to give to us to get ASCP certified. She also told us that if we are CNA's she'll help us get ER Tech certified, which is alot more money AND exactly what I want to do. So I have to get my CNA recertified so that I can get my ER Tech certification. The only down side to the class is that in 5 weeks when clinicals start I'll be clinicals Monday, Wednesday and Friday AND going to school Tues and Thursday, so all of the time I have home with the kids is definitely going to get cut in half. My sister is supposed to watch K for my while I do school and clinicals but I think I'm going to see if I qualify for daycare assistance and see if I can get her into a good daycare. She's never been in a daycare again and she's really really smart and I think a preschool would help her get even smarter. Another good thing about this class is the teacher helps us find employment after we graduate. OoOoOoOoOo and before the class ends I get to file and intent to graduate and I get to walk with the class of 2009-2010. We don't have to if we don't want to but I really want to. Its kind of a right of passage...ya know?

So I've been looking at stuff for KK's Birthday party next month on the 20th. I'm so excited and she's even more excited. She's been telling me ever since J's party in November that she wants a 'Pinkerbell Erfday Party", so I've got a friend of mine that makes fondant and buttercream cakes and she's making K a fondant birthday cake.

I have to buy the topper but isn't it beautiful? We've got the Life Center at the Northside Baptist Church reserved for it and I'm going to decorate it with some of the Tinkerbell party supplies from Party City. I don't think I'll get the cups or plates, I think I'll just get purple and green plates but I think I'll get the table cover, banners and things like that. We'll have juice boxes for drinks so I won't need the cups.

So I've gone a WEEK without ANY soda. And besides some of the kids juice I've drank nothing but water and besides the headache and grumpiness I do feel better. I even think my stomach has gotten a little smaller already. I'm trying to quit carbs also, but its proving a little harder than I thought. I love love love bread and I've cheated a few times. LOL But I'm trying and I'll do this. Is anyone else out there trying to lose weight? I think I'm going to get the Wii Active. :-)

Well I think I'm going to FIND my motivation and do something about this house. Talk to you guys later.

Wow its been awhile

Actually to say its been awhile is not even half of it. Nah....I have neglected this poor blog, but here I am. Why not live in the future huh?

So its 2010 and alot has happened since I last posted. I am now a full time mommy and love it. I got laid off back in September and bc its cheaper for me to stay home than to work my husband and I decided that I'd just stay home with the baby. I absolutely love it bc when I had KK I went back to work when she was 4 weeks old so we missed alot of the bonding that alot of mothers get with their newborns. I did breastfeed but still its difficult when you work. I've been home since September and I've got KK completely potty trained, J's doing real well in school(he's in first grade now) and he's learning how to read and to do math, KK can count to 10 and I'm trying to teach her her colors. Right now tho everything is either Pink or Green.....her favorite colors lol. They are so big, she'll be turning three in February and it breaks my heart. Where did my little bitty baby go? She's so grown and talk sooo much. She can hold a conversation like an adult and is as quick as they come. J turned 7 in November, it's hard to believe that in three years he'll be 10!!! He's already got attitude, but we're working on it.

Along with the whole switch to being a SAHM I got a call Monday saying that someone had dropped out of the phlebotomy program and that on the list of alternates my name was next!! I went yesterday and registered for classes, tomorrow I start. I'm so excited. I want to work in a health field somewhere. I'd really like to get my Respiratory Therapy certification, but this is just a foot in the door. With this I can start working in a hospital and then hopefully go back to school to get my certification. My first class is tomorrow from 2:30pm-6:00pm, I can't wait. I'll update tomorrow night and tell you how it went.

Um.....I cant really think of too much more. I'll upload some more pictures later.

Pictures of my hair, kids and ect

my pink lowlights that sonja did for me!!




KK's halloween costume. she's a witch!



My new neice A Michelle Pylant. She was born Saturday night at 11:44 7lbs 7 oz

Geezzzeey Peezzzeeyyy

Geeez, I'm so fricking exicted about this new Twilight movie. Perez Hilton has the new trailor on his site, I frickin Love Perez Hilton, and it fricking rules. I can't wait over a month for it. I just can't..Its inhuman to ask something like that of me. I cn't wait until November 21 to watch it. I reckon I'll be forced to watch more Twilight Tuesday on MTV like a stupid teeny bopper. ::sighs::

So I informed my husband a wk or so go that I want to have our next baby before I turn 25. Ideally, 23 or 24. His exact response was ,"Uh....maybe....." My husband is so fricking articulate. I've decided if push come to shove...I may be forced to take advantage of my husband. hehe. I really want another baby but I think I have to have the IUD in for another 3 1/2 years. Then maybe I'll remove it we'll hve another baby and I'll get my tubes tied. I definitely don't want anymore after that. JB thinks we'll have another boy, but I really want another girl. Boys are just so NON stop all the time...girls are so much easier. But, I'll be hppy with either. We've already decided on names(I know silly huh). If its a girl, we're thinking River LeAnn or Seirra LeAnn......if its a boy, Jonathan James. That still puts alot of space btwn ll the kids, but thats just too much to as to have another baby any time soon.

Sonja and I decided against making the poodle skirts....basically its b/c we just dont have time to do it. Btwn both of us working, the kids football and ect we just dont have time. So we're going shopping this wknd. I'm so fricking excited about that too. I love Halloween so much, I can't wait. I hve bloody hand prints on my door(courtesy of Dollar General) and Im going to put ghost int he tree. We're going to get the pumpkins this wknd but wont carve them until next wk or more.

Next wk JN and D(Sonja's husbnd) are going to the Carolina Panthers Vs New Orlean's Saints game that Sunday, so me and Sonja are going to have a girl's night Birthday Pary for her(her birthday is the 17th). I'm making her Chocolate Cupcakes with grey whipped frosting and tomb stones...to signify the death of her 20s(she turns the big 3-0), we're gonna drink strawberry dahqris, and watch chick flicks. So far we have Where The Heart Is, Pride and Prejudice, Fried Green Tomatoes and The Entity coming in. I doubt we'll be able to watch all of them...but we'll still hve good time.



well anyway...I'ma go on.



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This is how I feel on this WONDERFUL Friday!!

YAY FOR OCTOBER.....30 days till halloween

Today the countdown til Halloween starts, and I just CAN'T wait. Halloween is my ABSOLUTE favorite holiday ever. I love it more than Christmas!!! Baby k is going to be a fifties girl with Sonja's little girl P. We're going to make their skirts, its something new for us but if we do well we're going to try and make bows also. Sonja makes these great blankets and I'm trying to convince her if we can make the bows we should try selling the bows and blankets, I think we could make money off of them. People are ALWAYS buying boutique style bows and Sonja's blankets are so cute, I'm sure she could sell them AT THE LEAST $10.00 a piece. I have two blankets she's made for K so far, one is purple on oneside with turtles and the other side is pink, the other one is pastel striped fleece on one side with pastel blocks with "so sweet, oh baby, and cutie" written inside hte blocks. They are both very cute and K loves them. I think we can do it. I'm a little nervous about making the skirts tho. I know how to sew pretty well and I'm sure we'll cut it right and all...I'm just hoping they fit right. We're making the skirts out of black felt and both of the girls are gonna have pink poodles on them. I'm going to do K's hair in pig tails and she'll wear a little white onesie with it. We'll probably pull Paytons hair back and curl it. They'll be so cute. I don't know what J's going to be, I'm pulling for The Hulk tho. Wal-Mart has a really cute Hulk costume with muscles and everything...but stinking JB is trying to convince him to be Iron Man(i think Iron Man is stupid AND ugly...not a good costume). J doesn't really care, as long as its cool. He ju st wants to get candy.

I'm just so stinking excited!! Every year we go to North Chase(which is a HUGE neighborhood) and the kids get so much candy they fill their pillow cases up completely. Last year there were 6 kids and 6 adults and there were a bunch of scarey houses set up, scarey yards...it was fantastic. It scared Jacob senseless but he still had a good time. J was spider-man(what 4yr old boy wasn't Spider-man last year) and K was a lion. They were very cute. Of course K didn't get to enjoy it quite as much b/c she wasn't walking...basically she rode in her stroler looking cute until she fell asleep. This year both fo them will enjoy the thrill of it...I just can't wait.

But anywayz, so I have another project I'm trying to do now also. I'm TRYING to make K a black Trask Titan onesie for her to wear to the home football games. I started it today and it looks ok...its a little crooked but hey...I'm not artist. I think I'm going to write "Baby K" and the number "07" on the back..since it was the year she was born ya know? I'm really wanting to find a navy blue or silver little skirt or tutu to put with it so she looks like a little cheerleader....I wonder how hard they would be to make? Anyone know where I could buy one at?

O well.. Nothing else really happening, Crystal hasn't pissed me off lately....but I'm sure that will break shortly. She usually doesn't go without pissing me off at least once or more a month. J's birthday is next month(November 8) I'm trying really hard to fight my conscience and not invite her. She didn't even call last year and wish him a happy birthday, why should I invite her this year? Plus, I seriously doubt that on a Dunkin Donut's salary she can afford to bring herself plus her two kids with her all the way up to NC. IDK..I just feel bad in a way. I know if it was my son I'd want to be at his 6th birthday....but then again I don't think I would have been as distant from him as she is. I couldn't imagine not being near K all the time. I really don't know, I guess I'll think it over. I just don't want her showing up with her bitchy ass mom and causing drama.

Well until next time..or maybe even later tonight/this evening.

J(4) KK(8m) and Daddy 2007

Jacob(4) as spiderman "You say someting to me?"

Kaitlyn(8m) looking cute as a lion 2007

One blanket Sonja made, it has turtles on one side and hot pink on the other...she made this shortly after k was brought to her, she fell in love with k.

the other blanket sonja helped me with....its real cute

Just a little about me

My name is Jackie. I live in Rocky Point, North Carolina with my son(he's actually my step son, but hold your britches I'm getting to it), my daughter and husband. My husband and I have been together for almost 5 years, been married for 2 of those years(2years on the 23rd of this month). I love JB(whose 23) with all my heart, do we have a perfect relationship? It's perfect for us, sometimes I'd love nothing more than to rip his ears off but I love him alot. I'd be lost without him.
How we met is actually kind of funny. I was talking to an ex friend of mine and I was whining b/c I didn't have a prom date. She was trying to get me to take some guy named Woody(his last name is woody, and thats what everyone called him), I kept telling her no I'm not taking some guy named WOODY to prom with me...hell no....no just hell no but hell fucking no. I don think so. So I went to prom by myself and started talking to JB. (he wasn't in school at the time) Come to find out JB and Woody were the same people. So we started talking...and well the rest is history. For my senior prom I went with someone name Woody anyway LOL.
Before me and JB got together he was with a girl named Crystal. She got pregnant when they were 16 and gave birth to J on November 8, 2002. He was born with a congenital heart defect called Aortic Stenosis with valve regurgitation. Shortly after he was born he went into heart failure. The rushed him into surgery and did an emergency angioplasty to widen the valve. He was on alot of medicines as an infant but currently he isn't on any. He just has to see a cardiologist every year, they are trying to wait until he's a teenager to repair the valve again. At that time they will do whats known as the Ross Procedure(I'm not explaining what it is...look it up). JB and Crystal didn't last much longer after that. JB was on drugs real bad and Crystal was out fucking around. So JB was forced to go back to NC(they moved to Florida to live with Crystals mom to have the baby).
Shortly after JB and I started dating, Crystal's daddy(he lived in NC) came to JB's house. Apparently(J was alittle over a year old) J had come up with several fracture's in his leg and Crystal couldn't/refused to explain how they happened. The courts stripped Crystal of ALL custody rights and she got charged with felony counts of child abuse/neglect. She was in jail for(i think) 3 years, when she was first put into jail she was pregnant with J's brother(not by JB tho) Junior. Of course, being in jail, they stripped her of right to Junior and both Junior and J were put, temporarily, into Crystal mother Jennifer's custody. Jon and I fought for custody for 3 years and finally got custody of J in December of 2006. 3 days before christmas. I was almost 8 months pregnant with J's sister KK.
When J lived in he was allowed to run wild. He cursed fluently in two languages(Jennifer is mexican, crystals mixed, so he knew both englisha nd spanish), screamed, yelled, threw fits. So needless to say our first few months with J were hard. But now its been ALMOST 2 years and J is a different little boy. He doesn't curse at all anymore, he doesn't(really) throw fits TOO much anymore, and he DEFINITELY doesn't yell or scream. The only problem we have with J now is that when he's not with us, his grandparents(mine, crystals or JB) or my babysitter(Sonja, trust me you'll hear alot about her, I Unfortunately, other than being incredibly cute and adorable, my daughter isn't AS interesting as J's story. KK was born on February 19, 2007 at 11:21 am. She was 7 lbs and 21 inches long. My water broke at 10:15-10:20 and I got my epidural at like 12(maybe later or earlier). I pushed for 15 mins...yes thats right, 15 mins and she flew out LOL. She's small for her age, she's 18months old now and MAYBE 20 lbs-22 lbs. Theres nothing wrong with her, she's just little. (exactly what the doctors tell me LOL) But don't let her size catch you off guard b/c she's sassy. She's starting to get attitude and she doesn't mind letting you know whats what. lol. She has stayed with Sonja since she was 6 wks old. I actually didn't know Sonja until 2 wks after K(her nick names are: Kayby Baby, Baby K and K)was born. She lives on the road I grew up on, 2 mins away from my parents and I happened to pass her house and saw a Home Daycare sign, so I figured why not.. So i called it. And met my best friend. She's 29 years old with 3 kids(4, 6, 10) and has babysat kids for 6 years. She's the one who started calling K Baby K. I love Sonja with all my heart and I couldn't imagine putting KK in institutional daycare ever. Sonja's awesome. Every Saturday night(sometimes we take breaks) we play spades with her and her husband(David) while J stays the night with her youngest son Griffin. Griffin has helped J with his saddness over missing Junior.